Darr lagta hai !!!

...gairon ki dhamki se nahi...
apno ke dhoke se darr lagta hai...
..garm lu ke thapedon se nahi...

...kat'ti...
thandi hawa ke.... jhoke se darr lagta hai...
..ab tak jin  haathon ke saath chala hun..
unhee pairon ke thoke se darr lagta hai...

..P.S..Guess Wat ??...

ab bewajah rona chhod diya hai....
...ab us chaand par khona chhod diya hai...
..galti shayad meri hi thi...maine...
(us)ektarfa hawa ka...rukh mod diya hai...

....Ehsaan...

...ehsaan hai merijaan toh mat kar...
...yun (baar-2) bolkar uski pehchaan mat kar...
...mere wajood ka sahara  nhi hai tu...
...reh-2 kar khudko yun meherbaan mat kar....
...ehsaan hai merijaan toh mat kar...

.......Kaaash......

...ab...koi 'utna' khaas nhi hota...
...ab...kisi dard ka ehsaas nhi hota...
...khwahishein...toh ab naa rahi bohat...
.....bas......
....meri nazmo ka 'ek' panna....... unke paas bhi hota...




....No one seems that special anymore..
...am feeling so numb...
....no more wishes to fulfill....
...lest... she reads these "sonnets of love"....

....Deedar....

...koi izhaar...to aakhri ho....
...koi inkaar...to aakhri ho....
...isi ummeed mein jee rha hun...
...band hoton se pee rha hun...
...jaan leni hi hai....to zeher hi kyun...??
....unka... koi deedar...to aakhri ho....



...just wishing that....
...some proposal ...be my last one...
...some denial... be her last one...
...living on... in this hope...
...enjoying...half heartedly...
...wud rather die ....wen I know ...
its the last tym I am seeing her...

.....For the Readers.....

hai jinhe shaq , aur jinko hai yakeen
haal-e-dil yeh 'mera' hai....kisi aur ka nahi
cheekhne ko ab... mera 'yeh man' nhi karta
Ab khokhli saason mein ..... yeh aahein nhi bharta
Jin pyaar k panno ko main palat chuka hun
Phir Un rangeen panno ko yun kora nhi karta


".....For those who believe me...and for those who dont...
....this is the plight of my heart...none else's...
.... I dont care if you dont believe me...
...neither does my heart, which no longer is subjected to that 'unsurpassed feeilng' ....
...... If it weren't me , then I cudn't have put all these feelings to words ...
.....the feelings....I've left behind...."

....Zaroorat......

Thi alfazon ki zaroorat .... khayaalon ki nahi....
Thi ikraar ki zaroorat.....ishaaron ki nahi....
Aankhon se jeene lage the hum toh....
thi unke deedar ki zaroorat......Badrang nazaaron ki nahi...



"My heart was pounding with feelings, so hard to contain...
.......I was failing short of words.....
All I wanted , was her acceptance of my profound love for her ....
.....no other way left, to make my feelings get through to her....
....I breathed life through my eyes....
...just wanted another glimpse of my beloved...
.....nothing else....
could have been as gratifying and worth as much....

....The Change ...

bawaqt badla.... bewaqt badla..
(wo) dekhle ek baar mujhko....
is chah mein harwaqt badla..
Is ashiqi ki naa kadar thi...
Is ashiqi ne(yeh)shaqs badla ..mere pyaar ki yeh inteha thi..
par...naa izhaar badla ,naa inkaar badla...


"I tried changing with time , tried changing against it..
hoping that she will take notice...I changed everytime......yet my feelings went unnoticed... the love that changed me...
...though it was put to test( for its purity)..
..but ...the proposal's still there...and is her denial..."

......OR....


bawaqt badla.. bewaqt badla..
(wo) dekhtle ek baar mujhko....
is chah mein harwaqt badla..
Is ashiqi ki naa kadar thi..
.Is ashiqi ne(yeh)shaqs badla ..
ho chuki saari hadein ab(paar)..
hai pyaar badla,dildaar badla...



"I tried changing with time , tried changing against it..
hoping that she will take notice...I changed everytime...
...yet my love for her went unnoticed... the love that changed me......the limits have been crossed..
...(changed has)the desire and the desired..."

.....Marz........

.....ab aur kitne tukde karein is dil ke....
......har arz pe ek tukda hota hai....
....sochte hain...aakhir is marz ki dawa kya hai ??.....
....jis marz ka marham hi usse rota(behta) hai.....

"...with each one I pen...
..breaks apart my broken heart...
I wonder sometimes...where to find the relief from such pain..
which itself holds together my heart...
..part by part .... "

....jaamm.........

is inkaar pe socha unse rooth jaayenge....
is inkaar pe chaha itna toot jaayenge...
chaah kar bhi woh.... gar humein paana chahe...
anchahe jaam ki tarah ...haatho se chooth jaayenge...

.....bikhri raeth.....

is inkaar pe socha unse rooth jaayenge....
is inkaar pe chaha itna toot jaayenge...
chaah kar bhi woh ....gar humein paana chahe...
bikhri raeth ki tarah.... haatho se chooth jaayenge...

....the burning heart.....

...mere pyaar se use ittefaq nahi hai.....
... yeh inkaar hai uska ?? .... mazzak nahi hai ??...
itne jaldi kaise maan jaaun main...
...ki wo meri ho nahi sakti.....
...dhadakta hai yeh dil ab bhi .....
...abhi jala nahi..abhi raakh nahi hai..

PS:the word ittefaq here is used for "interest".It also means coincidence...apart from these meanings Accordance, Accident, Agreement, Concord.

"She has no concern for my love...
is that her refusal or is she teasing me...
I am still to believe ...that she cant be mine...
my heart still beats for her ... still burning ...yet alive..."

....the broken heart......

woh kehte hain ki hum.. unki fitrat nahi jaante...woh kehte hain ki humein apna nahi maante..unhe ilm nahi ki hum unke ho chuke hain...unki taareef main.... apni pehchaan kho chuke hain...iske baad.... ab aur kya wafa dikhayein hum...itne pyaar se to... khuda ko nahi pehchaante....

"How can i love her??...is what she asks....
when I dont know her ...is what she reasons...
I am not one of her own ...is what she reckons...
perhaps she doesnt know... I belong to her ...
for I have lost my identity in her admiration...
what else is to prove ..... I love the almighty's very own inspiration "

.....the refusal....

jitni baar bhi izhaar kiya...
usne inkaar har baar kiya...
.use kya pata izhaar-e-ishq ki takalluf...
is dil se poocho.... jisne har inkaar se pyaar kiya....

"Everytime I professed my love ....she denied.......
how could she know the efforts I've put in ... ....knows my heart .... that adored even this art(the art of denial)"